a fight between my heart and mind..to engage in a relationship or not?
should I continue breathing?..of course…it is not the end of the world…My heart says, go on and love whoever you want but my mind says not yet, which is which?..where will I go?..what will I follow?..I am in a breach of giving up..it even came to a point that I am already numb of the feeling..will I have the time to love someone?..my mind says..of course you have for you are just a young lady..just wait for the right man to come..the big problem?!!..my family thinks otherwise…What is wrong with me?..Can I afford to be lonely for the rest of my life?…nah!!!not my cup of tea…I want to have a family that I can call my own..I just have to work on my studies first..follow my dream and wait for whoever God will give me as my man…I want him to be my world…The only guy that I will love for the rest of my life…Accept wholeheartedly regardless of his flaws as a human being…Maybe, just maybe, before I graduate I will have someone to call sweetnothings…hehehehehehehe!!!!!!…
hhhhmmmmmnnn!!!..I am excited!!!..what will I be with someone special?..I think it can be learned in the process…Thinking about it..afterall, who sets the rules of not having a boyfriend before graduation anyway?..I did and I can always deviate from that rule…;)
